As I continue on my journey. I was rescued today. I do have my doubts. But the mass today when I watched the mass homily was beautiful as usual. Today was the feast of St. Thomas, apostle in the Catholic Church today. Duringthe night, I woke up a few times and I was doubting my ability to carry out my memoir. I need more traffic, blog, Feeling a little disappointed my body was have a Little palpitations in my heart.
I know God is looking out with me. I live and move and have my being in God but I was doubting early morning. So my trust level went down. When I watched the mass today on Catholic TV I learnedit was a feast day of St. Thomas the apostle of Jesus Christ. When Jesus Jesus gathered 12 apostles and Thomas was one of themwhen he started his ministry. After his crucifixion in the upper room … Thomas was not there first two times when Jesus came after he resurrected. So they the other apostles told him that Jesus came. He doubted. Jesus appeared to them again and Thomas was there. He doubted but Jesus reassured him and Thomas said “my Lord and my God”this to me was the highest form of prayer. I learned so much by listening to the Gospel today. And reading this on divineoffice.org. My faith has strengthened we all need our strengthening in our faith I feel. What is your faith how do strengthening your faith. It really helps a lot I get so excited more and more when I know that God is with me working with me I live and move and have my being in God I do believe this. I feel this is all my strength and of body and mind spirit. I would like to have my memoir a interactive memoir. I talk about my faith but I want you to use you are faith, where I’m talking about my faith. It is a beautiful thing to have your faith we all believe in the one God. There is no judgment here. I like to go back before I hadstrokes and be able to talk with my readers about their other faiths. I will not disappoint you I am going to get to that point. I’m thinking that maybe in the meantime I can have some conversation and you can give me some feedback as a reader let me know what your faith is and how you feel about it. I feel as I have written before that has has sent me is saving graces on this journey.
Saint Thomas, Apostle
God calls us. When we hear it, we answer in faith and begin to experience an authentic missionary journey. At times, many of us doubt; both the call itself and the path laid before us. As Thomas did, we find ourselves longing for proof. Moments of courage are interrupted by moments of fear. In John’s Gospel, we hear Thomas’ initial courage as he spoke to the other disciples, “…’Let us also go, that we may die with him’” (Jn 11:16). Yet, shortly after, we hear St. Thomas’ anxiety, “Lord, we do not know where you are going; how can we know the way?” Thomas’ human emotions remind us that we need a Savior. At these times, may we remember Jesus’ mighty answer to St. Thomas when He said, “…I am the way, and the truth, and the life; no one comes to the Father, but by me” (Jn 14: 5-7). 
quote taken from Divine Office.org
Written by Sarah Ciotti
Reviewed by Fr. Hugh Feiss, OSB, STD
 Revised Standard Version s.v., “John, The Gospel According to.”
 Cardinal Ignace Moussa I Daoud, Intervention at the Pontifical Oriental Institute Meeting, Dec. 7, 2002.